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Thursday, September 15, 2005

i was uber high yesterday. totally gone mad, till sharon and dyan almost went crazy with my nonsense. haha. sorry. was just trying to vent out. heh. today was damn tired. totally dead. but managed to laughed quite alot too. couldn't help it. had amaths and chem test. amaths is a killer. it was so tough that 1 and a half hour wasn't enough for me to complete 10 questions. i didn't know how to do most of them? and left them totally blank. great. chem was alrights, consider the fact that i studied in front of the tv?

afternoon with dyan, pratz and bev. ( : and laughed alot too. trying to imitate rama's actions yesterday. lol. ask me, and i shall demo for you. hahaha!

and i realize something. i have drifted from everyone. yes, everyone. sigh. i don't know what's going on, but i just can't seem to hold on to the friends that i have. and slowly, they are slipping away. i am pretty sick of it, but i feel its just so difficult to maintain friendships. even jaima and i have drifted so much. i mean since sec 1, we have always been close, used to hang out and have heart to heart talks. but now? no more. we have drifted, to the point when we don't even talk sometimes? but i know she's there and i hope she's there. i feel like a failure. i don't know why i allow things to happen, and not do something to stop them. because of these, i have lost friends. friends i love, friends i treasure, friends i care for, friends i am close to. and so now wtf is going on with my life. i don't feel like i'm myself, i miss the old me. i want my life back. but that's not gonna happen? why didn't time wait when it moved on? now that i'm stuck in the past, i can't let go. i want everything like how it used to be. urrghh. pardon this entry, i need to vent out. behind my laughter is the tears that threaten to fall. i just can't pretend anymore, that nothing happen and act like i don't care
yeah. don't bother about the shit above. cheena test is postoned. yay. amaths ct5 next tuesday. save me. man. gotta buck up. motivation please. anyway, bye.